Happy New Year!
Okeoke gue telat gue tau sekarang tanggal 3 dan hahaha iya udah diem gue tau gue telat-_-
oke topiknya agak melenceng dari tahun baru tapi ya i miss him. Him. Miss him so bad :(
people said that we supposed to celebrate those day, new year eve. but except me, i just cant enjoy that day
even it supposed to be my birthday.. i wish he was there. i know it's impossible but.. please God, can we?
i miss cuddling on his arms, i miss his voice, he doesnt even remember my birthday. :(
i know there's something wrong with us but can we just make this all work out?
I MISS YOU! should i scream it out loud? hhh you wouldn't even hear it, right?
kita ketemu aja lagi tanggal 9, lama banget kan?
intinya gue kgn lo.
oke? soal tahun baru? gak ada yang seru-_- serius bahkan gue ngelewatin tahun baru gitu aja
gue tidur dan sadar bangun2 udh tgl 1 Januari 2012. Gue gak ngerasa hari itu spesial.
flat.
Flat banget.
Btw, ngomong-ngomong thn baru, nunggu itu gak enak. gue gak nungguin jam 12 biar niup terompet atau apa, tapi gue kira lo bakal sms gue ngucapin "happy new year" or somekind like that but no! lo gak ngucapin.
Sloslo gue biasa kok :')
Gue skrng bingung mau ngomong apa..
Bingung.
Banget.
Sometimes, i just feel like... "Don’t eat, you’re gonna get fatter. Don’t talk, you’re making yourself look fucking stupid. Don’t laugh, it’s annoying as fuck. Don’t try making a connection with him, you’re becoming more pathetic with each attempt. Don’t hold on, you’re going to fucking let go sooner or later anyways. Don’t expect someone to make an effort with you, you’re just gonna let yourself down again. Don’t try, whats the fucking point? Don’t cry, you’re fucking weak. Don’t feel anything anymore, numbness is all you fucking know now. Don’t hope for freedom, these chains are never going to be cut loose. Ever. Don’t even breathe; it’s fucking pointless."
udah ya,
Lotta love,
ADEL
