Is it, love?

Wise man once told me don't ever let someone you love most.. go, or it will hurt you eventually.

but what if its for his best?

or mine?

i know it sounds so selfish, but why would you hold something that hurts you so bad?

why would you hurt yourself?

why would you?

why?

what if both of you were never meant to each other?

i know i love him when his laugh's one of the most fave things in life 

i know i love him when i can't even let him go on a diet cause i dont want him to feel hungry

i know i love him when i've said "whatever" in every fights cause i don't want to make everything goes worse

i know i love him when hugging him can really comfort me

i know i love him when he lay his head over my thigh cause i know it would comfort him

i know i love him when i lose my temper when he doesn't text me in 3 hours
i know i love him when his good morning & good night greeting are the things i always wait each day
i know i love him when see him crying is burning my heart
i know i love him when losing him....makes me dying

but......

now i realised we really have to be this way

you may have to take your own time, enjoy your beautiful life while i will find my happiness.

oh and dear you,

if someday you see this posting, you have to know that i'm not going anywhere. I love you. I always did.
well, people changed. That's how a person could learn how cruel life can be.

"Sometime in the future maybe we can get together, maybe share a drink and talk awhile and reminisce about the days when we were still together. Maybe someday further down the line and i will meet you there. Sometime in the future we can share our stories when we won't care about all of our mistakes, our failures, and our glories. But until that day comes along i'll keep on moving on"

 Kamu terbaik, terakhir, tersayang.








with love,
Adel

Another vision

People say, that sometimes life's not always going as what you expect it to be.

sometimes it was going outta your plans, totally.
at least, that's what exactly happened to me these early days.

God's plan would always be better for you, or might be the for the people around you,
i believe it all happened for your own good, i hope there's a reason behind this thing.

Or maybe..

i have to let him go for a moment for my own good, or for own his good.
perhaps, i will meet you at the corner of coffee shop with your own business, asking about how's life going, talking about the past, about what we'd been through those past years, about the job, the family, anything. Maybe, we will meet again when we're better for each other.

that's the only reason why i keep struggling till this day.

I believe, it's one of many God's plans that have been sent to me.
I believe it's for my own good.
I believe everything's gonna be okay.
I believe that life's such a rollercoaster -- life's not always be at the top or down.
I believe my family would be back (all of them)
I believe he's the one.
I believe i can make it through.

for now, i just want to thank God for everything he gave me, for the past, the lessons, for this life esp., For everything, i'm nothing without You.

For you -- my special one, be though,

i know we can make it.

2 years,

and still counting,




--Adel

What a sweet pressure

People say, pain is all about love, love, romantic stuff, couple things, blind date, break up, move on.
For me,

It's not.

It's not about love, love, and love.

Sometimes, family can hurts you too,
sometimes, it's become a biggest pain in ass
sometimes, family causes a deep deep peer pressure
or even worse, a teenager suicide

The one who can't survive the rest pressure ended up die

Gratefully, i guess i can survive

These early days family become sucks,
okay -- i was thinking i have to look at myself
i used to think i'm the blaming one

guess it's not


mom become insane
step father does it even worse
bestfriend start disappear
the real father and his wife don't even care

family's sucks



can't wait to have my own life, at least with myself all alone.
with the job i've been dreaming
the partner of life
the lovely children
my own perfect crib


so there's nobody can ruin it
like it ruined my teenager life

oh, well and yes..

Life's a bitch





--Adel