you've changed me

"what if love isn't as simple as boy meets girl?"
emang cinta segampang itu? hmm, gue terlalu kecil buat ngomongin cinta. yep, i'm just a 13 years old girl.
tapi yg gue omongin sekarang itu hm mungkin "cinta monyet" hm agak berhubungan sama "first love" tapi... beda bgt.

first love? menurut gue kata-kata "i don't need to be your first but i wanna be your last" itu yg gue pengenin.
ayolah, come on. gue masih anak kelas 3 smp dan menurut gue sekarang yang terpenting itu, sesuatu yang jelas-jelas ada di depan muka gue (baca: UN)

"it is hard to fail, but it is worst never to have tried to succeed"
gue emang orangnya cuek, gak pedulian, tapi bukan berarti gue gak mau berusaha.
gue berusaha semaksimal mungkin sampai gue bener-bener nyerah. kapan gue nyerah?
saat gue mikir kalau gue bener-bener gak bisa!
gue selalu belajar, mungkin. hm sebenernya, ya gak selalu. kadang-kadang. tapi, ya menurut gue itu salah satu usaha gue. apa hubungannya sama judul "you've changed me" NAH! ini dia.

dulu mungkin gue suka kata-kata ini "they're good, i'm fool, i must run away and crying" tapi sekarang? ayolah, motto gue "people say i have bad attitude, i say fuck 'em"  AHAHA i mean.... bukan "fuck"  yg sesungguhnya tapi... kalau emang orang ngira gue berubah, gue jahat, gue bla bla bla, buat apa gue peduli? emang mereka bayarin sekolah gue atau apalah itu? they are hm ya who they are, and i am what i am.

"last night i dreamt you were with me. finally, i could breathe"
boyfriend? okay, itu hanya masa lalu, pacar bukan segalanya kok :-)
kalau emang someday gue ngerasa cocok, yowesss tapi, it doesn't mean harus pacaran kan?
pacaran menurut gue SEKARANG itu hm, kalau emang gue nyimpen rasa sm cowoknya udah lama alaah-_- bhs gue berat ciyn.

okay, buat sekarang ya let it flow lah :-)
"Sometimes, it's okay to push people away. 'cause that's when you know who will leave and who will back"

lotta love,
ADEL