Worst day ever

i don’t like complaining and putting all my problems out there to people but everyone has those really sucky days but....have you ever been in the worst situation? Yang dimana lo nonton spongebob aja lo bakal ngomong "APAAN SIH ITU KUNINGKUNING KOTAK BISA NGOMONG?!" yang dimana kepentok pintu bisa bikin lo ngomelngomel sendiri dari pasar minggu sampe depok. yap! gue bete. bete sangat. entah karena gue lagi pms apa gimana gue juga gangerti. aaaa having the worst fucking day ever, and i've a feeling that tomorrow isn't gonna be any better either. AAAAA so angry, annoyed, pissed off, upset, etc. Feel like i wanna crawl up into a ball and cry or maybe just die a little. rgghh stfffffffffffu
kenapasih orangorang lenje berkeliaran dimanamana? menurut lo gue suka? hah? big no!

i just want to curl up on my bed and cry. It takes a lot for me to want to do that, but it’s all i feel like doing. i am trying so hard to keep my tears inside right now. 
i don’t like to show my tears. i’ve always grown up feeling like tears don’t mean anything. i spent too many crying nights as a child, where nothing stemmed from it. i have to be strong. crying is a weakness. it’s all i want to do though… because i’m weak. i’m too weak to hold on and be strong anymore. for heaven sake ya i miss to call you kece all the time haaaft idk actually bete sm galau tuh beda tipis-_- tapi tadi sebenernya gue bete banget bete yang sampe pengen makimaki orang gituloh-______- cuman ya hmm sabarsabar it's gonna be so looooong thursday. i should be strong enough, i can, i will :")


ftw,
ADEL