Reality

Hi, have u ever feel like there's a lot of things u can't handle with?
Pernah gak lo ngerasa gak cukup baik
Pernah gak ngerasa hidup lo terlalu berat
Pernah gak lo nahan rasa marah yg akhirnya malah jd sedih
Pernah gak lo ngerasa that you're nothing compare with any body else
Pernah gak lo nangis sejadi jadinya cuman buat ngelegain hati lo doang
Pernah gak berusaha semaksimal mungkin tapi tetep dianggap 0
Pernah gak ngerasa that you really could not face the reality?

If you haven't feel it yet, then i have

It's gonna be so long story.
Mungkin gue emg gakbisa nyeritain apa yg gue rasain secara urut tapi hope u get the point of it

Gue udah berusaha semaksimal mungkin, sebisa gue, i'm trying my hardest. Tapi gue rasa lo gak akan pernah ngerti itu, lo bahkan gakmau tau. Maksud gue, semua cewek wants to be special for someone they loved, bahkan buat orang terdekatnya juga. Semua orang mau ngerasa dibutuhin biar tau dia layak untuk hidup, biar tau rasanya dihargain.

Ya as i said that every girls wants to be special
Siapasih cewek yg gak suka di "kamu cantik banget" and you mean it
Siapasih cewek yg gak mau dijengukin pas dia lagi sakit
Siapasih cewek yg gak mau dibelain saat ada yg jatohin dia
Siapasih cewek yg nolak buat diperhatiin
Siapasih cewek yg gak suka di kasih surprise
Siapasih cewek yg nolak buat dikenalin ke keluarga pacarnya
Siapasih cewek yg gakmau having such a great quality time sama keluarga pacarnya
Siapasih cewek yg risih saat lagi marah maksimal terus dipeluk
Siapasih yg gakmau di perlakuin spesial?
I bet everyone need that

I mean, people are so selfish. Mereka selalu mau diperlakuin baik, dibikin seneng, diperhatiin, disayang, ditemenin, tanpa tau sebenernya kita butuh timbal balik.

Yaa i know that one wise man said

"SAYANG ITU HARUS TULUS, GAK BOLEH MENGHARAPKAN TIMBAL BALIK"

But..
Hello? We are all human
We're broken
We're down
Kita punya rasa capek, dan sabar kita ada batesnya.
Sedih kalo dijelasin sebenernya..

Gak berarti sayang gue itu gak tulus, but sometimes i just need my real man
Orang yang bisa tau apa yg gue mau tanpa harus gue kasih tau
Okay you might say "i'm not a mind reader" tp harusnya lo lebih peka dong:(

Not for some materials, i'm not that kind of girl who loves money, branded bags, shoes, car, or even your credit cards (materialistic)
I mean, your attitude, how you treat your girl

No, i won't say it to you. You won't understand that
You won't get the point of these statements

Seberapa sering gue nyoba buat jd yg terbaik
No matter how hardest i'm trying
I would never be good enough for you
maybe for your family too
I realize that yeaa

I... Really...
I'm nothing :)

Nothing..

...compare with your old loves.

But.. Really
...trust me
...
...i'm trying my best

You have your own desicion to choose which way of life that can bring you to your real happiness
I dont expect that we really have to be together
I mean, yea i'm fine. Believe me, i'd love to see your cutest tiny smile even it's not for me


Good night,
Adel