Abandoned

Hm hehe
he said "i will never let you go, never. Cause i know we both are meant to be together, forever"
and then after whileeee he left.

Sounds cheesy? hm
Lagian seneng sama sedih datengnya sepaket kan?
Kalo kata orang-orang "bersakit-sakit dahulu bersenang-senang kemudian"
Kenapa kita harus bersakit-sakit dulu? Kenapa gak "bersenang-senang dahulu dan kemudian senang terus"
Kalo abis bersakit-sakit terus mati gimana? Emang dijamin abis sakit bakal seneng?
What if the scars would stay forever? But you didn't.

Terus pas kita ditinggalin, kita itu apa?
hm mungkin pertanyaannya biar lebih jelas tuh "terus pas kita ditinggalin, apa kita kuat?"
Nah iya.

Bukan soal ikhlas ga ikhlas sih.
Tadi pas keputrian gue diajarin kalo kita harus bisa 'memelihara'
Memelihara iman sama Allah
harus bisa memelihara hubungan juga ga?:/
Katanya guru gue kita harus bisa memelihara perasaan pasangan kita.
Tapi... gimana kalo yg biasanya memelihara udah pergi?
siapa lagi yang mau?

Kalo udah ginisih ya bisa apa lagi
cuman bisa diem doang, sabar.
Sometimes selfishness would wreck everything.
Now all i'm going to do just watching over the distance.
Waiting for an apologize that i know it won't ever told by you.

"I can't promise you a perfect relationship with no arguments over our differences and trust issues, however i can promise you as long as you're trying, i'm staying"

but you didn't, you are-not trying. So? i'm done dear, we're done.
Thank you for all the precious thing you gave me, thank you for the overcaring, thank you for the worries, thank you for the compliment, thank you for the sweetest moments, thank you for everything-e-very-thing. Including thanks for hurting me, thanks for every shitty thing i wasted for you, thanks for being the fucking special person for this whole time. Once more, thank you i remember that you promised you'd never say "i'm not strong enough, we should totally break up"
Maaf juga buat semuanya, maaf udah sering ngabisin bensin, maaf udah sering ngerepotin, maaf buat semua kekurangan gue yang sebenernya ga harus lo tau, maaf udah jadi yg terburuk, maaf gabisa jaga perasaan lo, maaf buat waktu lo yg seharusnya ga abisin buat gue, maaf udah jadi gue. You deserve someone waayyyy better than me:)
I'd miss every little stupid things about you, about us. Gimana lo melet di motor, gimana lo sampe ngebentak kalo udah kepo, gimana lo bilang "i love you", gimana muka super ganyante lo kalo lagi maen drum, gimana rasanya dimaenin gitar sambil dinyanyiin sama lo, gimana rasanya pas disamper kekelas sambil ngomong "makan yukyuk gue laper bangetnih deeell", gimana pas lo ngaca sambil benerin rambut trus nanya "gue aneh gak sih?", gimana pas lo lagi jemput gue dan gue belum siap trus lo kesel sambil ngomong "del ayok ah buruan ntar telat", gimana muka bocah lo kalo lagi seneeeng, i'd miss how i love your smells when we're hugging, gue juga bakal kangen pas gue lagi makan trus lo ngomong "del bagi dong, boleh ga?", gue juga bakal kangen bangeet dengerin lo cerita panjang lebar tentang lo mau nabung buat beli mobil pake duit sendiri, sepatu, ganti hp. I'd totally miss it, ngebolang bareng malem-malem, makan di pinggiran saking lapernya, diajarin sama lo kalo gue gangerti pelajaran, dan masiiiiih banyak lagi. i'll miss that, and i'll always miss you and all your silly face you've made when we're taking a picture huhu sedih deh gue ah galau, let me give you one sentence, i'll make a promises with your heart and i'd honor it.
I love you, dumb ass. I always do:(

ADEL

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Hay,

Complicated.
Huft have you ever feel like being tired of something you've done over and over again?
this wasn't what other people called 'bored'
Have you ever feel like "fuck, i'm totally done"?
If you didn't then i did.

Ini bukan cuman tentang gue.. dan dia. Kalo dibilang secara luas, gue capek.. sama semuanya.
Life isn't supposed to be this cruel.
They said that "Allah itu adil"
Tapi dimana titik adilnya?
They said that "God'd loving all of his creature"
Tapi kenapa gue masih ga ngerasa disayang?
Mungkin gue yang kurang beriman, iya mungkin.

Whenever i'd a fight with him, i feel that he's totally okay,but me? i'm slowly dying.
It feels like my heart is pounding so hard and so fast that it moves itself into my mouth.
Sometimes words are rough, but people have to try to find the cause.
At and any other moment, i'm gonna throw up.
And the fear that he'll leave is always there, until we're okay.

Gue tau jaman sekarang orang muna banyak, mungkin hampir semua.
But sometimes juga kadang lo harus admit something you knew you did.
Kalo lo salah, coba deh belajar ngaku dan minta maaf.
bukan udah tau salah, malah pura-pura gatau dan malah marah balik seakan-akan you're totally right.
Suka gondok gasih kalo ada orang kaya gitu? Hmm

People said that at the end we'd always be alone.
Jadi coba biasain diri hidup tanpa orang lain, atau kadang kita yang terlalu sibuk merhatiin orang lain tanpa sadar kita emang selalu sendirian?
Duhduhduh
Galau edisi weekend bgt deh gue
#galau #abis #banget #harus #bagaimanaaaaa

Have you ever feel like.. *sigh* I really do not know why i have to describe how perfect he is
Here's the story..

Ceritanya tentang seorang cewek yang obsessed sama seorang cowok, yang bener-bener udah disukain dari lamaaa dan she reallyreally know how it feels to admire someone. Bukan secret admirer ya beda.
Till once upon a time..... Cewek ini bener-bener jadian sama cowok itu. She promised to herself that she'd do anything just to keep him stay. with her, as long as possible. Because she knew someday she won't be able to touch him like before, won't be able to give him such a goodbye hugs, she won't be able to take care of him, to love him like they way she did before. Till she really gave him everything she had. Everything, Iya semuanya.
Till someday the shortest horror story appear : He left.

HAHA.

Harus udah biasa sih ya denger kata-kata "ditinggalkan" dan "meninggalkan"
Apasih gue gajelas abis hahahahaha gakok daritadi gue ga curhat, itu semua yang diatas bukan tentang gue, gue sedang bosan saja HAHAHA
udah ah, bye.


ADEL

Sept, 9th

Everyone deserve their second chance, ryt?
everyone even with the different sins.

Hmm yang namanya kesempatan apalagi kan gadateng dua kali, dua kali aja gadateng apa lagi tiga kali.
tapi kenapa ada yang namanya second chance?
Ada cowok nih yang pernah ngomong ke gue "semua orang pernah salah kan?" atau gak ngomongnya "Semua orang pasti pernah khilaf del"
yes, everyone does.

Itu kenapa ada yang namanya second chance.
Second chance itu hmm ada buat ngapus kata 'nyesel'
biar kalimat "nyesel itu dateng belakangan" bisa diganti dengan "semua orang berhak dapet kesempatan kedua"
Yegak?
Iyakan?
Iyadong.

Tapi gimana sama orang yang ngambil kesempatan orang lain?
I had been through this situation, and it's totally hard to keep my head up, to face the truth and trying not to look back.
Karena nengok kebelakang itu cuman bikin nyesel. Makanya kalo mau maju, maju. jangan maju-mundur. Ntar gak move on, move on.

Semua orang pernah ngerasa bersalah kan?
So do i, tapi jangan bikin itu jadi beban buat kita.
Gue pernah ngerasa bersalah karena udah ngambil kesempatan orang lain.
Gue nyesel, iya gue nyesel.
Tapi, ini jalannya kali ya, awalnya ga ada yang nyangka gue bisa sampe sejauh ini sama dia.
But here's the reality, i survived.

Buka lembaran lama hidup kita aja sakit, gimana kalo liat lembaran lama punya orang eakkk
tapi ya namanya kepo wajar kok, manusiawi
"you never kepo alone"

Sebenernya potongan-potongan kalimat gue tuh daritadi nyambung tapi gue gangerti gimana ngatur kosa katanya jadi gue potong-potong wakaka maap yak, jadi yang ngerti sih gue rasa titik pekanya tuh tinggi abisz
OHIYA! sebenernya juga dari awal gue gamau bahas ini tapi ya tadi di otak gue cuman itusih, gimana ya.

apa gue buat postingan baru? nyampah abiez ga sih? hm
Biarin deh followers gue aja cuman 5 siapa yang bakal merhatiin yekan?

Udah ya, bye