Abandoned

Hm hehe
he said "i will never let you go, never. Cause i know we both are meant to be together, forever"
and then after whileeee he left.

Sounds cheesy? hm
Lagian seneng sama sedih datengnya sepaket kan?
Kalo kata orang-orang "bersakit-sakit dahulu bersenang-senang kemudian"
Kenapa kita harus bersakit-sakit dulu? Kenapa gak "bersenang-senang dahulu dan kemudian senang terus"
Kalo abis bersakit-sakit terus mati gimana? Emang dijamin abis sakit bakal seneng?
What if the scars would stay forever? But you didn't.

Terus pas kita ditinggalin, kita itu apa?
hm mungkin pertanyaannya biar lebih jelas tuh "terus pas kita ditinggalin, apa kita kuat?"
Nah iya.

Bukan soal ikhlas ga ikhlas sih.
Tadi pas keputrian gue diajarin kalo kita harus bisa 'memelihara'
Memelihara iman sama Allah
harus bisa memelihara hubungan juga ga?:/
Katanya guru gue kita harus bisa memelihara perasaan pasangan kita.
Tapi... gimana kalo yg biasanya memelihara udah pergi?
siapa lagi yang mau?

Kalo udah ginisih ya bisa apa lagi
cuman bisa diem doang, sabar.
Sometimes selfishness would wreck everything.
Now all i'm going to do just watching over the distance.
Waiting for an apologize that i know it won't ever told by you.

"I can't promise you a perfect relationship with no arguments over our differences and trust issues, however i can promise you as long as you're trying, i'm staying"

but you didn't, you are-not trying. So? i'm done dear, we're done.
Thank you for all the precious thing you gave me, thank you for the overcaring, thank you for the worries, thank you for the compliment, thank you for the sweetest moments, thank you for everything-e-very-thing. Including thanks for hurting me, thanks for every shitty thing i wasted for you, thanks for being the fucking special person for this whole time. Once more, thank you i remember that you promised you'd never say "i'm not strong enough, we should totally break up"
Maaf juga buat semuanya, maaf udah sering ngabisin bensin, maaf udah sering ngerepotin, maaf buat semua kekurangan gue yang sebenernya ga harus lo tau, maaf udah jadi yg terburuk, maaf gabisa jaga perasaan lo, maaf buat waktu lo yg seharusnya ga abisin buat gue, maaf udah jadi gue. You deserve someone waayyyy better than me:)
I'd miss every little stupid things about you, about us. Gimana lo melet di motor, gimana lo sampe ngebentak kalo udah kepo, gimana lo bilang "i love you", gimana muka super ganyante lo kalo lagi maen drum, gimana rasanya dimaenin gitar sambil dinyanyiin sama lo, gimana rasanya pas disamper kekelas sambil ngomong "makan yukyuk gue laper bangetnih deeell", gimana pas lo ngaca sambil benerin rambut trus nanya "gue aneh gak sih?", gimana pas lo lagi jemput gue dan gue belum siap trus lo kesel sambil ngomong "del ayok ah buruan ntar telat", gimana muka bocah lo kalo lagi seneeeng, i'd miss how i love your smells when we're hugging, gue juga bakal kangen pas gue lagi makan trus lo ngomong "del bagi dong, boleh ga?", gue juga bakal kangen bangeet dengerin lo cerita panjang lebar tentang lo mau nabung buat beli mobil pake duit sendiri, sepatu, ganti hp. I'd totally miss it, ngebolang bareng malem-malem, makan di pinggiran saking lapernya, diajarin sama lo kalo gue gangerti pelajaran, dan masiiiiih banyak lagi. i'll miss that, and i'll always miss you and all your silly face you've made when we're taking a picture huhu sedih deh gue ah galau, let me give you one sentence, i'll make a promises with your heart and i'd honor it.
I love you, dumb ass. I always do:(

ADEL